I seem to have gotten myself into quite a pickle at work. I am sooo nervous, more nervous than I can remember ever being my whole life. My hands are clammy and sweaty, even as I continuously wipe them down on my jeans. My heart’s threatening to jump right out my chest. And you know the expression “scared shitless”? Yeah… no idea where that came from, for I had the exact opposite problem (but ok..TMI). For today was the day…
Birthday Wishes for Dad (and when parents are unsupportive)
This is a sensitive topic that many bloggers don’t really talk about. But my blog is my space for any of my weird/random/personal musings, and I don’t hold too much back. My father is not an easy man to understand. I’m not sure whether it’s due to just being born that way, his upbringing in China, or his life experiences, but he is extremely pessimistic. He often doesn’t see the upside or light in any situation. I try hard to think if it’s…
On Doubt and Moving Forward
If someone had told me a year ago that by spring of 2014, I would have quit my job and flew away to lands far, far away to explore the world with a man who I was not married to… I would have nervously laughed (and then ran away to get away from the crazy). I’m not that girl. I like security. I like roots. I like knowing that I can develop some strange disease and be covered by health…
Lessons from Hawaii
Spending time in Hawaii is a bit different than spending time in Los Angeles (and I’m not just saying this because I was on vacation). Los Angeles – the land of the superficial – is often consumed by selfies, labels, and smartphones. On Hawaii, there is no room to think of such things. Time slows down in such a way that you are able to notice things you usually take for granted. The locals are friendlier. You just feel happy…
I Am Thankful (2013)
Thanksgiving beckons family reunions, home-cooked food, laughter, and warmth of a home. It is also a day to take a moment to reflect over the past year and express gratitude for the blessings of life. And even though my family isn’t from America, over the years, we have adopted Thanksgiving as a beloved holiday to be celebrated. A turkey no less than 16 lbs will be roasted, pies will be baked, the table will be set, and leftovers will be…
Late Twenties Girl
The prospect of turning 27 has always been quite scary for me. It’s not the dreaded 30, but 27 may be even more intimidating. At 27, you’re officially in your late twenties, an age where you are expected to make responsible decisions. An age where you’re supposed to have figured out your career path and life goals. If you do something stupid, no one will shrug it off as “oh she’s just young” anymore. In the workplace, you’ve had enough…